Sleeping Beauty and her Prince

I cannot wake up. Since my treatment day, I have been in this slow motion 90 year old body routine. I am too tired to eat and too tired to wake up. It is a strange new situation. My poor Prince looks at me with those very worried and sad blue eyes and I can only say that this will pass. He does remind me that I am sleeping 11 or 12 hours a day and look like I have not really slept more than 2 hours. I have a theory that involves Alex and his bad cold. Even though I do not have a cold, my body may be fighting it and all I can do is sleep it off or sleep it away. So, yes, I have been beside myself with tiredness and become more frustrated with my homeschooling of Alex as he is home sick. Now normally, I would send him to school, but I cannot have him pick up something else.  Even though Alex is talking to me like he is pinching his nose the whole time, he still manages to express his nasal congested questions. We went from the “why Mommy” to the “do you think if this is the simplest fraction and I multiplied it by this number, then blah, blah, blah” or “what do you think of this hypothesis for another science experiment?” or “if I saved this amount of money and gave my third to charity, then a quarter of the money is going to be saved, but I want to put some in the bank….”  Of course, all I can say is “huh, are you talking to me?” Dare I even ask a question about Star Wars or piano theory because I have absolutely no idea. I have no energy and when he talks it sounds like that teacher in the Snoopy/Peanut cartoons, “wah, wah, wah….” It used to be that we would do some creative things to expand on what he has learned and now, he is just barely learning what he needs to learn according to either a state standard or a state test. Gone are the days when he would come home excited to tell me his latest factoid or that he was knighted as the “word wizard” or that he wanted to read a poem by Langston Hughes because his teacher told a “cool story” about him. I will go to sleep soon in hopes that when my Prince awakes me that there will a new love of learning, just for learning and not for a test AND that I can stay awake all day without a nap. I do know that no matter what I will live happily ever after…..


2 Responses to “Sleeping Beauty and her Prince”

  1. Nancy Says:

    Alex will be fine. Let the wonderful Canyon Vista teachers and staff take care of making sure he learns what he needs to. He’s a smart little guy. Focus on taking care of yourself. Listen to your body and sleep if you feel you need to. Know how much we all love you!

  2. Audrey Says:

    Joanie…..Stay as peaceful as you can and just sleep and take care of yourself. Don’t worry about Alex. He will be just fine. Just rest. I haven’t been on your blog for a while but wanted to see how you were doing. You are so strong, so wonderful. Thinking of you, Jim and Alex and I’m hoping and praying you feel better soon. Love you, Audrey

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